My dogs

They like to lick each others faces. And when that's not going on, they're running their butts all over each others faces. It's pretty gross if you ask me. My dad says that's just what dogs like to do. I can't imagine licking my sisters face and then rubbing my butt all over it. Dogs, pretty freaking weird!
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Going through

My old iPod. My goodness, I must have been the absolute weirdest adolescent alive. They're all about death and darkness lol. "this noose, is too loose for my broken neck" haha, what a freak! I love it though, its all dark and twisted. Dark and twisted is like my rainbows and bunnies.

My feetsies

I named my toes:
Petunia
Monty
Harold
Chuckie
Darrel
Molly
Phill
Lillian
And Darla

They're my new best friends and we go everywhere together.

Reusable bag syndrome

It's funny how that's the ONLY thing people do and they still think they're like totally saving the planet.

Draaaaaaagon!

Today I was watching mythbusters with my oh so lovely boyfriend and they were busting the myth that Shrek lit his ear wax as a candle. Then, we flip the channel and guess what's on tbs??? SHREK!!! Goodness gracious, I love these minor coincidences in life, they really get me by. Go Fiona! Kick ass and power through!

Back to work!

I go back to work tomorrow and I feel like I'm going to puke! Id be more excited if I had at least stopped limping. Lol I have to mentally prepare myself to deal with some pretty gnarly target shoppers. Gotta admit I'm excited to be getting some income. You'd be surprised what they pay for me to sell my soul to the devil. I'm great full I have a job and all, but it's like high school in there. Who knows, maybe I'll go back and everyone in charge decided to grow a brain, however, I won't hold my breath.

1984

This book reminds me a lot of the movie Equilibrium. It stars that bat man guy and he lives in this word that has no feelings. Every day they inject themselves with these little guns and it makes all emotion go away. There is no love and no hate. They have no literature, no art, and no music. The main characters wife is killed, and when he is asked if he loved her, he says he doesn't understand the question. Nuts. The first time he hears music, he cries. Cries! I would cry too if I was in my mid thirties and I'd never heard any music. It's a good movie, of course they revolt and ladidadida, Hollywood ending, but it makes you think. Me like :)

Today In Sociology

My teacher said there are theories suggesting we are going to be the first generation to take half a step down instead of half a step above our parents. Does that make any sense? Sometimes I feel so small like I'm drowning in a puddle. I don't know what to do and apparently neither does anyone else. Anyways, the clues must be deciphered and I will journey forth.

Bills bills and more bills

I keep getting mailed bills having to due with my leg injury. Actually they're not bills they're copies of bills my insurance took care of. Dude, if I didn't have insurance, I'd be in CRAZY debt. For emergency surgery and three nights in the hospital it was over 100,000 dollars. NUTS!! Thank you Obama for letting me have insurance through my dad until I'm 24. I am eternally grateful.

Mama Grande

I had pancakes with chocolate chips in it! My grandma freaking rules :)

No Way Jose!

I think I'm on the break of something,
Or I think I might break or something.
There's something in the water,
Something lurking beneath my feet.
My insanity maybe.
Who am I kidding, I'm not crazy.

SOS

You can't be lost if you don't know where you're going right?

Tisk Tisk Tisk

Today I ran into my friend Eddie. I haven't seen him since he graduated high school leaving me there to fend for myself. Ah starbucks, the wonders you accomplish. Two creative butt heads foolin around, can't wait to reunite our brains and wee what they produce. :)

4:14 A.M.

I wouldn't have to put am if we all used military time, but we don't so I do. What am I doing awake right now? I took a nap around 8, woke up at 12 and I've been up since. I need to get back to a normal sleeping pattern, I haven't done anything productive laying here. Today was kind of a weird Tuesday, it felt more like a no-day instead of a week day. It's like one of those days that has nothing to do with that day, like nothing about today was Tuesday-like. Kind of like those days in high school where it felt like you were there on a Saturday. Nothing is outstandingly abnormal, but it certainly isn't normal either. I'm just delirious. It's a side effect from being awake at this hour. My parents are going to be gone all day Saturday, I'm taking full advantage. I'm going to wake up early and blast some female empowering music. And some not so female empowering (but very fun to dance to) music as well. I'll probably invite a few friends over...or not. The possibilities are endless and certainly not rated PG.

We're Gonna Be The Next WIld Thornberrys

How insane would that be? Take that America, I'm not doing your nine to five bull s**t. I'm going to Africa to study elephants and to Alaska to study to musk ox. It'll be me and hunny, changing the world one Discovery channel viewer at a time.

Frozen planet!!

If you're not watching this you're nuts! The shots they captured are INCREDIBLE! They had these owls that ate a lemming in one bite and these bulls that ambushed a pair of wolves trying to find a meal for their babies. Muskox fighting for females, some fighting till death. Nuts!!!!

"Never forget, question everything and make the familiar strange!!"

Gas prices

They've literally gone up 20 cents shy of a dollar since I broke my leg and stop driving two months ago. It's nuts to think how fast things change in such a short period of time. It makes me want to stop driving altogether but it's a good thing my car is tiny and has good gas mileage.

The Different Animals I Would Be

Sometimes I wish i were a cat. I would gather the little birdies that fell on the floor and return them to their nest. I would stretch all day cause I'm sure it feels great. I would still eat human food because it's delicious. I would climb trees and jump on people walking by, cause let's be honest, that would be hilarious. I wonder if my brain could fit inside of a cats head. Being a frog seems like fun too. I would eat flies and go RIBBET! I would also blink one eye at a time, I saw a frog do it once and it looked like fun. I guess I would be a birdie also, so I could thank the cat that saved me by putting me back in my nest. There are these birds that make their nest out of spit. YUK! Imagine a human being doing that? How would we react? Humans....working so hard to act like robots.

Mis Hermanos

I miss my older brothers. One lives in Georgia, Aldo, and the other in Michigan, Juan. Right now Aldo is in Michigan visiting Juan and I totally wish I was there. My brothers mean the world to me. They're both Marines and both served two tours over seas, politics aside, protecting our country. That was probably one of the hardest times in my  families life. I still remember when Juan told my mom he was joining, and it still makes me want to cry. Laugh out loud. It's been over four years they've been home safe and I couldn't be more grateful. I'm hoping to go see them this summer. We'll see how it goes.

I'm like A Pirate With A Peg Leg

My doctor's appointment was a total success. I finally got my cast removed! I thought they were gonna keep it on for another couple of weeks but they took it off!! YES! They gave me a boot to walk in so I'll still be on crutches but only until I get used to walking again. It's nuts, I'm like learning to walk all over again. Should be interesting...

By the way, my leg looks SO weird. It's super skinny because my muscles shrank and all weird colors. I'll put up a picture as soon as it stops looking all creepy.

Doctor's Appointment!

I have one today at four! I am excited!!! I am hoping she will tell me I could finally start putting weight on my foot. I want this road to recovery to hurry up!!! I want to exercise and move around! I just want to not be broken anymore. Let's see, there are a few things I have to let her know. I fell walking up the stairs and landed right on my broken leg. I have also kind of been putting my foot down to balance. I've knocked into it a few times, too. Dang, she's going to totally kick my butt!!!! I've really tried to take care of it though. Oh, wanna know something gross? I stuck my hand in my cast the other day and I could feel the scab where my tibia was sticking out of my skin. Yuck!

Michael Shmichael!

This is my best friend, Michael. He's totally a nut ball! We could be talking for only two minutes and have already had ten different conversations. Not because we try to, in fact, we try to stick to less than three topics but it never works out. We're like old farts together. We forget everything, get lost going down the street, and we love to complain about the culture of today's youth. I've seen him transform from shy little Michael, to not so shy older Michael. Laugh out loud. We're on a mission to change everyone's mind about everything. We're not half full or half empty, we threw our cups away.

Something Sweet

I had a very long day, there were places to go with things to do and an essay due at 6:45. My class got out early but my boyfriend's did not and he was my ride home. I also don't have a phone so I couldn't text him. I almost fell a few times, being uncoordinated plus having a broken leg equals a bad situation. Also, I can't really clean my room very well so my clothes get all over the floor. Well I got home from school today and what do I see? My room is clean! My bed was done, my floor was swept, and the dirty dishes gone. I guess my mom cleaned it while I was at school. I can't explain how happy it made me, it made everything okay. Muchos besos para mi mama :) Lot's of kisses for my mom :)

I've been here, there, and at that one place.

Here is at my house, the place I grew up in. I've sat in the hallway between my parents room and my own and found it incredibly easy to feel like I was seven years old again. I've been in the bathroom where, surprisingly, my sister and I have had some of our deepest conversations.I've walked in and out of the kitchen, which was remodeled, ridden of old cabinets and old memories. Finally in the safest place of all, I was in my own bed where there are enough pillows for three, maybe four, two blankets and Wumby, my monkey.

The there is at my boy friend Brendan's house. I climbed up and down his staircase, hoping my crutches would not give out on me. I sat on his bed with my broken leg doing homework while he danced around making me laugh. I was his queen and he my jester.

That one place is the park. A few caring friends, a few conspiracy theories, and a lot of laughs. The government is reading our thoughts, subliminally making us conform. Everything is going crazy and there is tension in the air. The 1% is mocking us from their yachts and private islands. We're crazy and young and have everything to question. Why not?

I'm serious!

I can't get to the internet anywhere! It's friday night everybody! I'm totally happy to be able to express how much Fun I'm having! Friends hanging out. I have the sweetest boyfriend, an amazing sister, and her boyfriend who isn't a jackass. I have my parents and three older brothers, my older sister, and my twin. I have fun. Have a good friday!

Hello?

I have been disconnected from the rest of the world for three days. My house phone is down and so is the internet. Oh, and I don't have a cell phone. I've got to get with the program! I'm out of the loop! I'm using my boyfriends computer so I can't copy and paste the shenanigans I've been writing on my computer. I guess I could have brought my lap top, but I didn't think to..... Oh well.

Things I remember :
There's a man who said he couldn't manage with "only" making $306,000 a year. Is he joking??!! I am not okay with that America.

Tom and Jerry is my FAVORITE SHOW! I remember watching it with my dad when I was a little kid. It is a nice memory to look back on.

Mumbo Jumbo

My brother is studying at the University of Michigan for his PhD in mechanical engineering. FREAKING GENIUS! I'm totally proud of him but geez, set the bar high much? Anyways, I was talking to him the other day and he told me he was walking in snow! I was shocked! All I had on were shorts, a tank top, and a light sweater and I was fine! I had forgotten winter was still winter in other states. Gah, California, you spoiled me with sunshine and lack of drastic seasonal changes. Oh well, I'll just have to be satisfied with awesome weather all the time. :) Totally kidding, I'm ready to graduate from this pretend weather into some real stuff. I want rain and I want lots of it! I want to be snowed in and eat cereal all day. I should stop wanting and do something about it.

Time Capsule

One day your hair is black, the next day it's blue. When I was four I wanted to be a rock star and today I'm lucky if I know what I want for breakfast. Things are constantly changing outside and I'm looking at it through my window. I'm in a time capsule. The fragments of time I'm in the real world aren't enough. There's too much to catch up with. The air outside tastes funny. The hairs on my neck stand up when the sun hits it and I'd forgotten how amazing that feels. As fast as I remember, I'm shoved back in my capsule to dwell on the memories I try so hard to revive. I lay in bed waiting for my dreams to get the best of me as I slowly become more and more like the Mad Hatter.

Sodium Something Something

Sodium Lauryl Sulfate is the ingredient found in shampoos said to make mixtures foam well.  I believe SLS should be removed from shampoo for all of its negative repercussions. It is said to leave behind residues in the heart, liver, lungs, and brain through contact with your skin. These are the last things I expected to happen through a process that is supposed to be leaving me clean. None of these side effects are on the label and I feel like I'm being taken advantage of. If no one takes a stand to change the ingredients, then company's alike will keep finding cheap harmful ways to fool us into buying their products.

Sentences

I have a copious amount of socks in my sock drawer.
Sometimes my boyfriend is so tenacious, he reminds me of my father.
I was out of town so my sister surreptitiously planned my birthday party.
Keeping my voracious attitude towards sour candy in check is very hard to do.
My boss is an officious jerk who makes everyone around him want to quit.
I wonder how many spurious complements I get because of my broken leg, either way, I'll accept them.
My broken leg is especially onerous  when I have to climb a lot of stairs.
The gregarious bank teller made sure to welcome everyone who walked inside.
My parents try hard to live a happy and pious life.
I could see my sisters scrupulous attitude through her coloring books.

Shopping List

Broccoli
String beans
Tomatoes
Potato chips
No potato chips!
.....think healthy -_-
Brownie mix! (not healthy but I LOVE baking)
Yogurt-----strawberry and blue berry
Apples
Any suggestions?

More crayons
A new coloring book
More socks (I LOVE SOCKS! And now that I only wear one shoe, I feel like I have double socks!)


I think that is all that I need. I have my second class today. I hope it's as fun as my English class. And I hope my teachers as welcoming too. If not, I'll probably feel really weird. That's okay though, I'm used to feeling weird. I feel like I'm finally getting my life back. I even went to the movies! I'm going to do my taxes today. Oh! Yesterday was national pancake day or something. I shall compensate and make pancakes today :)

Am I Agoraphobic?!

After a month in my room, I had forgotten how many cars are in the world. Being in the car was a bit more nerve wracking than I want to admit. I shouted "Be careful!! I'm broken!!" to every car that cut us off. People driving should assume everyone else has a broken leg and drive safer! I look around and see so many risks! I'm almost always sure I'm gonna trip and re-brake my leg. This all sounds more paranoid written down.

 It's so much easier being an introvert at home.

2/26/12 3:08 AM

Channel
2-           some joint pain relief infomercial-- I got sucked in for at least ten minutes
3 -           will resume at 6am- lame
4 -          they're making soap-- they use a cheese knife to cut the soap
5 -         Hearts of Atlantis-- never heard of it -_-
7-           NoNo-- hair removal is gross!
13 -       Tyler Perry's House of Payne-- not my cup of tea
19-        SAME JOINT PROGRAM AS CH. 2!-- they get their stuff from china
20-25    SPANISH PROGRAMMING-- I could just listen to my aunts gossip instead
28-        P90X- sexy bods!
29-         80's CD collection- OMG it's the BANGLES
36-         ARTS- ballet... I need to go see this live!
49-         Locked Up Boston-- The guys an active Blood member!
51-         Van Helsing-- Great Movie!
53-         Whitney Huston Biography-- go figure
56-          I Now Pronounce You Chuck and Larry-- Adam Sandler is a comic god!
58-         Big Rich Texas-- terrible, terrible, terrible show
67-         Pranked--  guy passed out and they cut his clothes off...it's not funny typed either
73-         Mob Wives-- I will watch this show till I die!
76-         Jaws 2-- AHHHHHH!!!!!

I died my hair today. There's blue and red streaks.That's what happens when I get impulsive. I'm just glad I didn't cut my hair!

Nugget!

There's a lady selling her Chicken Nugget. Not just any nugget, a nugget that has George Washington's face on it. I was just eating chicken nuggets, they're so good, I don't have time to examine them! That lady has crazy good skills withholding a chicken nugget from her taste buds.

A Dream I Had

I was on a dock waiting to board a ship that was going to sink and kill us. The guy letting us on looked like an astronaut and was yelling some super creepy language. We were basically put in small rooms with no windows. The walls were covered in red carpet, including the floor and ceiling. When the ship began to sink, I could see the red carpet turning into a dark maroon color with water seeping through. The carpet was mushy under my feet and the whole room seamed darker. Then the ship began to spiral towards the bottom of the sea and the room filled with water. I remember thinking I couldn't breathe underwater, but I was breathing the whole time! It felt more like I was hyperventilating, not drowning. Then I woke up breathing really fast.

Not all of my dreams are this creepy.

Late Night Ramble

I downloaded a ghost app. I can't sleep! It says a bunch of random words that I don't think are so random. I could just imagine how bored a ghost would be in my house. Hopefully so bored it would leave cause I'm scared! And I also keep having these really creepy dreams that some eerie presence makes it impossible for me to move. Then it gets really loud like some sort of high frequency....I figured it out! I unfigured it out. I have no idea what I'm talking about.
I have no idea what I want to do in life as far as a career goes. But after watching so many movies, maybe something with that could be interesting.

Leg Comment & Other Comment

There's a spot on my knee, next to the incision for the metal rod, that is totally numb. I can't feel it. If someone were to be touching that spot, I'd have no idea. Also, my pinky toe's asleep. The doctor told me I should regain feeling after the swelling in my nerves goes down. I hope so, but I also wouldn't mind much if it didn't.It'd be sort of funny. :) 

Naomi Watts is ADORABLE in King Kong!

My Stomach Went GRROOOWL!

I woke up this morning and my face hurt. It was the weirdest thing. My eyes, my cheeks, my gums, and even my teeth hurt! Then that one thing popped in my head, where they say that your face hurts cause you're ugly and I started laughing. I had a total of three hours of sleep, what a deal! After being in bed for the last three weeks, any sort of sleeping pattern is completely gone. I never know what day it is. I kind of like it though. I've always liked being awake at night. I actually like infomercials and night time tv is FILLED with them! These pain meds mush all of my recent memories into a groggy fog. I only remember the important things....actually, I don't really remember anything. Oh wait! I have a doctor's appointment today! I hope she tells me I could start leaving my house! I've memorized every single part of my room and I want to burn it down! These last four sentences have all ended with an exclamation point, I'm much too excited. -_-

For my one amazing, supportive reader, you know who you are. I was watching Seinfeld last night, which never happens. And I'm not sure what was going on but some tv station was going to buy their show that was about nothing. HILARIOUS! I never knew a show about nothing could be so funny. 

GAH!

It's kind of gross but he makes me want to puke my lungs out. It's not like it would matter cause I can't breath when I'm around him anyways. I don't get butterflies, I get moths, giant, giant moths that are trying desperately to escape through my belly-button. Working in the same store as him is the worst. Concentration goes completely out the window and there's only one thing on my mind: Brendan. Have him walk by me and I'm suddenly replaced by this giddy, confused, tongue-tied version of myself...at first. Then you just can't get me to shut up. All of my crazy theories and confused ideas are spewing out like a broken water pipe and he's, to my surprise, drinking it all up. No one could possibly be this sweet, but he is.

-_-

I realized it's a lot harder to write something when the first thing I write is the post title. Of course now the next thing I realized is this post will be about nothing. But I guess that's okay cause I'm still writing and before I deleted my post title, my post would only be one sentence long.

I realized wrong, I still don't know what to write about.

Something I Remember

I was five and I remember the grass. I remember the rocks, the trees, and other, unimportant  things. I was eating a mango on a stick and I remember thinking, "Wow, everything is perfect." Then it fell and it wasn't. Easy as that.
Lucky for me, I have a twin who was nice enough to share hers. In a matter of seconds, I changed my view of the world three times from perfect, to imperfect, back to perfect again. Being five is was exhausting.

Vacation Shmacation

Two months ago my boyfriend, Brendan, and I planned our first trip away together. We're broke college students working in retail and totally into each other. He's from Connecticut and moved out here to Los Angeles two and a half years ago and I was born and raised in the Los Angeles County. For Christmas we decided instead of fancy gifts, we'd go away for a few days. So after a bit of planning it was set, we’d spend the last week of January in the snow where he'd teach me to ski.
The first day we immediately hit the mountain. After renting our gear it was time to see just how uncoordinated I really am. Run after run I increased my skill and decreased my embarrassment. I was having a blast! Day two I was even better, I hadn't fallen once! It was around 1:30 and we'd been skiing for a couple of hours. We took a fifteen minute break then decided to try something a little more difficult. A blue square, whatever that means. Well, I don't know what exactly happened but the next thing I knew I was rolling sideways down the snow and there was an excruciating pain in my left leg.
After waiting for what seemed a lifetime, the ski patrol arrived. I remember thinking, "If i broke my leg, it'd be hurting a lot more." He had to stick his hand in my boot, just to make sure there wasn't any blood. There was blood, and a lot of it. I was rushed to the care unit at the Big Bear Mountain, then to an ambulance, then to a helicopter, and THEN to the hospital. My leg was pulsing in pain. I had to have emergency surgery where a metal rod was inserted in my leg and is being held in place with two metal screws.
So instead of a week in the snow, it was spent in the hospital. Things didn't go according to plan but honestly, they never do.